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Treading Water
May. 24th, 2012 08:19 pmWow, long time no write ... I've been feeling a bit like I'm treading water lately and feeling a bit down about it. I was thinking about this the other day and realised something. Here's a list of things which have happened in the past 8 weeks, give or take, with people I know:
... and I keep getting emails and paper mail and stuff reminding me that this year is my 20th high school reunion. I would defy anybody, average or unaverage, not to feel a bit like a non-achiever when surrounded by all this activity!
I can't really control too much that I feel left behind - in a lot of ways it IS true - but not beating myself up about it is definitely something under my control. Realising how much "milestone achievement" has been surrounding me lately is helping me be a lot more gentle with myself.
Hugs,
r
- My current flatmate has got her drivers' license and is beginning car purchase investigations
- One of my brothers announced his wife is pregnant with their first child (which will be my first niece/nephew)
- A different brother and his wife started looking at buying a house
- My unrelated-Aunty's first grandson has been born
- Some of my longest friends have announced they're starting to try for kids
- A different close friend has bought a block of land and is going to build a house there
... and I keep getting emails and paper mail and stuff reminding me that this year is my 20th high school reunion. I would defy anybody, average or unaverage, not to feel a bit like a non-achiever when surrounded by all this activity!
I can't really control too much that I feel left behind - in a lot of ways it IS true - but not beating myself up about it is definitely something under my control. Realising how much "milestone achievement" has been surrounding me lately is helping me be a lot more gentle with myself.
Hugs,
r
